OK so remember yesterday's blog wherein my family lost a very dear friend on Valentine's Day of all days and wherein My Mother and Dad were attending their annual Valentine's Day dinner? Here's the link if you need to catch up.
WELL - apparently immediately upon arrival at said dinner, My Mother was hospitalized with chest pains.
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?????
I found this out this morning.
Tests were more or less inconclusive. She spent the night and was released today. And upon reflection it occurred to me that I think her heart was breaking. It is well documented that My Mother has a pre-existing condition: Sympathetic Heart Syndrome.
And it is genetic. I had a BUNCH of leaky eye moments today.
(To add to the heart aches, I think Big Funny Kid had a minor heart break today.)
sigh
Shout out to D-Gang who snatched me up for 45 minutes and listened to me and did that Head Nod/Eye Blink Thing that she does. I even got some snuggles from The Girl Who Has My Heart, who let me help take beads out of her braids.
I think she hit me up for a trip to Chuck E. Cheese.
Clearly, I am feeling vulnerable.
Speaking of vulnerable, Child #1 (MurrBeth) asked me if I would be auditioning for "A Streetcar Named Desire". Oh lordy do I want to play Blanche Dubois. But I told her that I am not physically vulnerable enough. I told her that no one would buy ME as a person having issues with aging. I am just too Jessica Rabbit/Sid Vicious looking for a casting director to take a chance. They will cast a 30 year old with an eating disorder.
(Blanche DuBois: I know I fib a good deal. After all, a woman's charm is 50% illusion.)
sigh
Here is to another day.
Everyone has vulnerability when they choose to share themselves. Your momma raised you right and you raised a young man who has the same full, sympathetic and open heart. It means all 3 of you will need friends and hugs. I can do both. And blink and nod. And pour wine. And provide kids who say the darndest things, snuggle and wouldn't know about chuck e cheese if you hadn't shown them!
ReplyDeleteOh, I understand your mom's heart. I have had chest pains and an sure that it was a result of a broken heart. We can only deal with some much pain and grief and then it just overflows. Some days I think I don't want to feel so deeply.
ReplyDeleteNow I would take that beautiful sprite of a girl to Chuck E. Cheese. Look at that face. The word no would not be an option. No doubt she makes life FUN!
Oh, Jodi. I am so sorry. I hope your mama is okay.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you have such beautiful, loving people in your life to soften the blows, to help you keep on with it all.
You deserve that. You deserve so much.
Birdie- I love that you call her a sprite. she is that! And Jodi never tells her No!
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